Marriage.

It has always been a beautiful and a happiess part of life that I have been looking forward to..
I felt that when two person is deeply in love with each other, that is the only thing that kept them going, and again, the next stages in life, together.
And im really curious, how did they manage to be so strong and go on.

I have been in a relationship for 6yrs straight. Not more than a week, im in another relationship.
In every relationship im in, i have seriously gave a thought about marriage!
Oh lord!
Why am i so into it and rush everything altogether, and messed everything up.
When i realise, things isnt what i expect it to be, there will be a huge disappointment, therefore, a breakup.

Again, each breakup, i learnt something.
Memories to me all are very important.
I have no regrets.

~"~"~

Now, what i have been thinking was, maybe..
Maybe marriage is not what i actually want..
You see, i dont wanna be commited to a house whole day. (even thou how i wish i have a own HDB flat)
I dont wanna stay at home whole day just to take care of my childen. (even thou how i wish i have 2 kids, a boy and a girl.)
I dont wanna just look at pictures of the beautiful things outside my world, but to experience it.

Next time you see me and try asking me about me getting married and my plans for wedding and my future home, I may disappoint you.

Next question you guys may have asked, what about your current relationship.
Yes jessica is right. HAHA
I twittered it before: Take everything a step at a time and time will tells.
He may not be the guy which i expect it to be.
But he sure to brighten up my soul without fail.
I dont see a future between us but i dont care cause he is a very good accompany.

(cs, if you read this, you may think im selfish. But again, i ask you, what is love all about? Im seriously confuse now.)

found upon a friend album and he has this many expedition he had..
and all these below is what i want to see.
just thought about sharing it with you guys.. =))


The alton tower



The london expedition


see the london eye!





Europe expedition! look at the castle!


and the garden!


aint it beautiful?


i decided to save my money for all this.
if i really found a companion, i don mind even going for a bag pack tour, seriously yes i would, at all cost.
hahaa!

this is the biggest reason why am i still here. =)

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it is a day, we had our own time spending together.
feeling somehow very akward..
the one yr spending together is like a dream..
i thought i did and understand him better than any person in the world..
yeahh and i realise i was really wrong all this while..

we catch a movie at TheCathay cineplex..
it was a sunday and the crowd came in the evening.
after movie, we went to PlazaSing..
i was very eager to go to B1 to see the fishes! =))
hoping to find a toy i wan for my goldfishes..
after which he bought me to alps, one of the pubs at princep road.
the ambience was pretty cozy..
we had settle our dinner there.
ohhh yessss i ordered that hazelnut martini.. totally eeeeeeeew!
haha! it is now comfirm that i will not drink anymore martini in my lifetime I SWEAR.
i tot the eew feeling for martini will subside with the cover of hazelnut.
but NO! zomg..... it make me sick.
we ordered two more jug of beers for ourself.
and cs started to sing..
my jaw remain open all the way. HAHA
even the next table, the guy came up to our table and cheers us with his 2 bottles of dunno wad beer..
even thou its not me, but i feel so proud to have a bf who sings well.
=))))
i have no pictures..
but i hope memories with no pictures meant something even more memorable..

i was very happy that night..
it is all i wanna remember.
such a pity that the issue happened and spoilt the whole occasion..
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that day i really went into the extreme of both ends..

MIA.

i attended "jess-brother", lon, wedding dinner.
it was more to a last min decision therefore csyong is not with me.
it was situated at the grand cophrone hotel near zouk.
a very very grand and beautiful dinner i had.. at first it was damn weird as my seat is so far away form jess n fred =((
worst thing was that it was winnie's (the bride) ex company colleague!
everyone was there chatting among themself and when i was ask: hi, which department you come from??
wthh.. im not even working in your company can! lol-ed..
we just exchange numbers and i given csyong namecard. haha jsu in case they are looking for cars! =pPp
awhile later before the dinner start, jess came to my rescue!
lucky her table has extra seat! =DD
seating beside me is one taitai with a ex pilot husband.
we exchange number again and now we are still in contact! lol-ed again.
hope the next time she contact me is when she wanted to sell her new car! hahhahaa

* I wan pics! *


last weekends, ah di organise a drinking session at nessea.
i was really enjoying myself..
although im not really a fan of beer.. i was pretty high that night.
and i drank quite alot too.. to the extend that i vomited before going to bed.
did i mention before that never in my life i drink drank drunk and vomit?
yeahhhhh i did now!
the effect really takes sometime to get drunk!
lucky baby is always there beside me.
i really love chinese oldies now. hahhaa the boys will never fail to sing their favourite song!
And those songs became part of my life now.. it is really very meaningful.. all the heartbreaking relationship that i went thru.. the feeling still lingers... i will pause and listen to them singing. no doubt, csyong can really sings mann.. haha!
he would ask me, am i better than the original singer? ohhh plss.. to me, for all songs you sang, the original singer is you baby. =))


monday was our off day together!
and since he got his pay, we decide to go town to do some MAN'S SHOPPING!
haah!
frolm wisma to takka to ion to wheelock and back to wisma!
finally, he got his shoe from aldo and his black blazer and a white T at zara.
dinner at pastamania to stop my naggings...
and movie with his friends at cwp to end the day.

tuesday
my off day continues..

went to gym! after that meet kit for a movie at amkch!
after movie we had our king prata that day.
we Q for this prata and the waiting time is 30-45mins!
but it was all so worth it..
next time i wanna xia cs come to amkch to watch movie ler.. kekez!
good things mus share with the person i love most!

we cabbed home coa i wanna make pasta for him!
the poor boy haven had anything and its so late!
when i reach home, i notice somthing fishy..
YES! i saw a fish tank and two lil goldfish inside!

he decorate the tank with colourful mostly pink peppers, and bought a house for them!
it was really a big surprise and i was really overjoyed!!
with that i quickly make the pasta for him and went over to his hse!

lols! his dinner at 11pm..
HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY!
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