my bf recently complaining about my boring straight hair. one fine day, we catch the DMC movie, he was suggsting me to bun up like the actress in the movie. i admitted that its really cute.. so the like jappy style. so after i wen back home i tried it out but wifout suscess. how the hell they do it so nicely? kinda disappointed, told him that my hair is too lil and short to do that cute bun.
SO few days back i catch some videos about girls teaching us how to o]put on eye makeup and learnt some pretty hairdos!!
(must be hardworking abit)
so i learnt the prom and the "ear style". din took pics of it cos i was kinda late when meeting him. i was so happy that he says it was pretty! =DDDD not that im trying to boost about it.. but if i want to hear good words from him, its like throwing coins into the jackpot machine hoping that it will strike.
wow! just listening to his praise really make me fly! hhhaaaa' i must be hardworking and try to fly more higher now!! wakakakakaaa~

my love.

SWINE FLU is affecting everyone in the west an sooner or later its gonna spread to our place.. it is noe code YELLOW and is no joke. pls ppl, if u knoe that u are not feeling well, pls wear a mask not for others but urself. ur immune system is low and when u go out, u get hit by many weird virus u nv knoe. so pls, prevention is better than cure!

as a nurse, i think all hospital gonna be gown up from top to bottom. like the scary SARS period. if u guys were to be concern to know how it is to be a nurse at this point of time. well, it totally scare the shit outta me. but wad the shit i care if i live in fear and not stand out to help those who really in need? yeahhh.. so as a nurse, i hope we will be strong especially at this point of time.. girls! jiayou~

alrite i just completed my nite shift!! (like again)
during my sleeping day, i meet bf and go over his hse overnite together wif his bro for MH2!!!! so cute to see us sharing the same blankets together! our lost childhood. damn shag! anyways actually we planned to have a cycling marathon at ECP to changi village. but its raining so heavily in the morning, plan change to MH2 again all the way to afternoon. his bro tony catch x-men the origins wif us at JP. i love it~!!
sent him to clementi for his IPPT and left both of us alone for another movie! HORSEMEN!! pshcho movie.... can be more interesting lo.. kinda disappointed thou.
after many months of not touching MACDONALDS. today, we tried the new promos meal. i miss mac fries already. hahhaha it taste so the like... potato...... >.<

our new hangout place wif bf is the paltform toastbox!! so windy and the atmosphere is more to a 90's. kinda romantic to have chats wif him there.. =)))
i told him that after spending the one an half days wif him is still not enuff, it was nv enuff always.. its like being smth there in my life. a complete one.

my off day and i sell my DnD ticket to kingkong. =)




love is sweeeeeeeeet'
it makes me love myself moreee'
today i DIY dye my hair. wow.. it is so much easier and cheap! they even provide us the hair treatment condition for us to apply! outside if i wanna dye i tink it cost about 160 bucks. and i got this DIY for only 6.80! teeheeheeee' worth it love it!

had movie again with baby!
after the aguement few wks/days back, we became so close.. close to all my confuse thinking. =)))
we told each other how all the drastic change we had become and happen.
nxt day after the aguement, he is so sweet!
and of cos, i changed back to more sensitive to his needs.
^^ u see, thats y aguements in between a couple is normal!
some ppl hav diff views.. but imagine a couple without anything like this.. quarreling and arguements, u wont understand wad is like to have the feeling of the sweetness aft bitter.

dinner at sakae ytd and breeks today!
wen im happy i go for happy food!
guess wad? baby is back to monster hunter game!!!!!!
YESSSSSAAAA!! im gonna practise new weapon like using the bow so i wont easily hit babyy and spoil his wadeva combo. hahahaa' and his brother tony gonna join us!!! lalalaallaaaaaa more ppl more fun!

there goes my 3 rest day already!
AM shift tml!!!
babyy offf for two days from tml! =(((
draggy..
hmmm.. if tml get to go his hse, im gonnna MH!!! yyyaaaaaaahoooooo'

aft a day of resting, mark, mainx, kingkong, chinny and me had our evening at the mind cafe.
it was fun and of cos, i hope the nxt time i go again wil be wif jess n chinny!
after the fun, we go clinic C and had syringes!
hahaaa' so uniquely cute!

reached home i said smth to trish, "i hope to find more buddie like you so that we can chill out more often and have fun!" trish said the same ting back. and im lucky that chinny is one of them surprisingly. wen we reach clark quay, before going to clinic C, the girl was so excited! already planned to enter into attica already! but mark drive so in the end we din go in. hahahaa'

trish chin n me shared the same interest and we have the hell load of fun going crazy! jus like serena in gossipgirls! trish has her ways in making new friends, and getting free cheap stuffs! i love chin cos she is always ok wif all our ideas! and jus the three of us.. we could party whole nite. i miss the first nite party! all almost dropping dead. for those who have not experience this wouldnt understand wad im talking about. but those who interested, i can show u wad it is to be real HAPPY! it is all just about fun and nothing else! =DDD

pics nxt time' =))

ytd, i made a call to chevron asking about my booking as they did not return to me for quite sometime. i was totally shock wen they say that my booking has already been cancelled on the 1st of april. no one inform me about the cancellation! i was so pissed off. and they blame it on the person who do the booking for me which whom has already left the company. i cried over the phone telling them that they have destroy my 21st birthday party. hoping that they will give me another room or wadeva. how could they do this to me? the lady who served me previously PROMISED me that she will come back to me and she will reserve the place for me. i can even make the payment on that day itself! i knoe the lady is from china. but i still don think it is a communication breakdown as i've spoke simple english and repeated and comfirm again a couple of time! she is just so irresponsible.

i couldnt manage to out talk the person, so i ran out of my bedroom crying for mummy. like a big baby i knoe. i pass the phone to my mum. my mum gave them a big scolding. saying how could they be so irresponsible and wanted them to settle the problem. but the most they can do is just put me on a waiting list. well, that is so impossible that i will get my room back. even if the girl has resigned, she can pass over the next person which take over her job rite??? ya.. how could they miss out and left me out!?

aft that, the first ting i do was to phone jes, still crying away.. i was soo disappointed.. so lost. she instructed me to quickly find another chalet and assured that it is not too late. call chin.. she ask for the chervon number. i told her tat it is no use talking to them.. they wouldnt give me a place. but she still insisted. few mins later, she call back.. and told me that she has gave them a good scolding and really make them feeel guilty. =))) the both of them really make me feel alot better..

now, i got a new place to party! its even more better than chervon! its aloha pool terrace!!!! the pool is jus infront, 4 bedrooms, livingromm, kitchen, 5 toilets, all airconditioned! its damn ex can.. one nite 500. but daddy say since jus now i cry so much, this is wad i deserve. =DDDDD

I JUST LOVES YOU GUYS MAN!!

while waiting for dear for a movie, i play guitar hero at arcade! i was top 9 at med mode. im so proud of it and i gave it under HAMS2BB! shall clear all the top10 if possible. hahhaaaaa'
after movie, i play GH wif his frenz. yeahh im addicted like always.

iiiii hhaavvveeee ccoommpleteddd my lassst nitteeeeee!
ITS MY SLEEPING DAY!!!
lata going mind cafe!
tata~!

for christ sake! i come the wrong Fcuking shift today!
u should see how i manage to climb out of bed today man!
totally draggy~
and how lucky my face lighted up wen i got a seat in the train.
rushing to the tearoom for a quike change.
felt something is wrong. wondering y are there so much StaffNurses today in the ward.
nxt thing, i was SWEARING OUT LOUD.
i see the wrong fcuking schedule and i ned to fcuking go home instead of changing morning. was furious at first.
tried calling dear but he was still in his lala land.
dammmmit how careless am i?
calm myself down by afew positive escuses.
well.. at least i wake up early for a long walk, and i brought breakfast for trish.

speaking about trish!
u should take a look on her 14april post.
on how stupid a guy can be generally.
for the lust and no moral values. pls dun only call us whores look at ur state! worst than a whores. at least most of them they are jus earning for a living. and you? come home scold wife, not appreciate our duties, not understanding all the pain we put thru before and after giving birth FOR YOU!

everyone should agree wif me on this. if not i will fcuking twist ur head for hrs!
*im sorrying if im swearing all the way. must be the skins. hahaaaaaa'











i have bring myself a big trouble...
no one could ever help me with this...
how i wish i could fly away to far far away places....
i need the fresh air there.. and my own world..
just one more push, i guess i would fall and never be able to get up..

u ask me to be strong.. but im really so afraid to face the problems awaiting..
i could not see hopes and everything is so -ve..

recently, i felt that i have become more understanding as a girlfriend, i open my heart and tell myself that i should not forget that relationship is all about myself too.
i changed because i realise myself that im not giving wad i should..
and im happier of cos!
from this lil changes in me, i tot that i could bring a big happiness to our world.

now its all gone..
im now left with worryness and helplessness.

maybe.. i should not even make that lil changes..

im feeling more and more upset with how my boss is doing her job. im in no right to say her as i know that as a boss, she has many things to be taken care of. and i understand the amount of workload she can have.
how she dotes on her staffs, is by practising favouritism. its so effing annoying when her favourites were always shaking legs.

Today is the day, when i have to handle dr's shit. patient death. junior annoying nags and complains ( probably swearing at me ). students creating more problems. ppl just don understand that i am busy, and i do not sit down shake leg. ppl kept demanding more from me. things that i do, showed no appreciation at all.
nxt thing, those leg shakers suddenly realise that they are working now, came "helping" me (which that is their job cos we are in the same team). and WOW! ppl were appreciating their help man~ wad the Fish is that? wad in the world is happening.. i couldnt believe it.

last wk i had a crazy night shift to manage.
my night, i have to help out a dangerously ill list patient, who needs active resus!!
we had:
-continuous CPR
-ETT insertion
-shock patient thrice
-4 ampules of adrenaline
-used up the 2.4mg of atropine

one point of time we thought that patient was gone cos the monitor shows the up and down of the heart rate. everyone was thinking that it was the IV meds which cause the heart beat. we were almost giving up when someone says patient is stil breathing! everyone actively, trying to save patient once again. it was so intense and finnally was send to ICU.


nxt thing, one of my patient gone. im worn out.



a day out with my coleagues to mind cafe! spend a whole 2 hrs there!
dinner at one of the clarkquay restaurant, and slack at clinic C. it was actually a wed nite. but due to some reason, we din enjoy the ladies nite. kinda regret but im always still looking forward!




the most enjoying part of the wk was billy and mine off day. we went cycling at ECP to CHANGI VILLAGE! IT WAS SOOOOOO HAPPENING OKAY!!! 20 plus kilometres nonstop! crazy man~ when going back from changi village, i was soooo reluctant! even paln to search for any bicycle rental shop so sell off the bike laaaa! but no.. billy wont let that happen.

upon returning, the sky grew darker.. freaking eerie to see the pitch dark trees just beside the track! damn.. that is the only reason that i did not stop cycling! haha~

at a point, we had no choice but to cycle at the highway!! cos it was too dark, we couldnt see a single light! =((( soo dangerous as there was big trucks came zooming from behind. billy was so worried about me and he kept screaming. hahahaaa' (he doesnt admit that his worried thou)
i think ive lost a few grams after that. all maybe a kg? =)))) wadever i knoe!

we reached the rental shop just in time for closing! phew.. so close.. if not i think we ned to tink of a way out.. sell the bike to alwyn?? haaha


okiedokie!
goodnite all~