today..
i had a surge of energy..
aft gym.. my hands were both shaking..
aft that.. im gd.

i tink im jus being another nonsense kid again..
but i was really mad.
i tink all my anger are now drained.
peace.

PS dearly (jess): ehhhh! u everytime wish me "gdnite sleep tight don let kaka bite" bluffs me looo.. =((
the kaka really bite meeee! i got 4 mosquito.. one big one on forehead!!!!!

its a flu season and alot of ppl have been taking MC.
and ive been tolerating all the nonsense shit.
jus today there is 4 MCs. 3ANs and a SN.
sian...

i myself oso not feeling well still come to work already.. now got to face all these shits..
super demoralising..
but wad to do? juusss woorrkk looooo.. hahas!
jus a lil complaining.. cos now no bfy here lers.. =((

if he were here, im sure he will side wif me and scold: F all those ppl! =PpP
i actually loves ppl saying bad words for good. =D

torday he called me again jus after my gym lesson. and he sang fall for u!!!!
like for days i din listen him singing..
and purposely, he sing tis song tat will touch my already weak heart.

got no appetite to eat..

ohhhhh.. im now listening to this song. very very very emotionally attach to it..



i miss baby.. for girls who have bfy in NS, should knoe how it feels.. jess is one of them. i volunteer to be her dearly. LOL i get angry wen she din msg me gdnite. jokingly of cos~

and today she compain to me bout her work. and like a bfy will do, side her no matter wad! and scold those freaking no manners ppl.. =)
tats wad best frenz are for.

s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2 s2



recently have been meeting out frenz after work.
the more i stay home the more i start to think..
today, is a meet out wif jess.
shop at far east and we got ourself a couple shoes! ^^
den a couple shorts! =D
i finaly bought my dress which i lay my eyes last wk.
settle our dinner at ramen teh~
satisfy my tummy wif lots and lots of sushies~ =)
veryvery cheap only! wannna bring baby go there eat nxt time!

wen i was working, baby call me but i was busy doing some off-ing of drainage.
wen i get to realise, i almost get paralyse!
mins lata, his mum msg me bout wad he wanna tell me.
hrs lata he call back!
i was soooooooo happy. it was tooz sudden until i dunno wad to say to him~
he said he would call me at nite agian and msg me wen he gets to.
tat was really BIG news to me wen i could hear his voice.
i do anything to exchange for it.

baobei miss you so much...

there has been a few events to blog about..
10 oct. saturday.





they look so cute in the pics.. kekez~
it is a bring-ur-gf-to-the-camp day haha! actualy, they can bring anyone but only one. so i got the opportunity to book in with him. reaching there, baby got to changed into his attire and start marching 10km round. nick was nxt. while waiting for our boyfy to finish their rounds, trish and me took 2 rounds of ride on a army jeep. =pPp the guy drove really fast until the helmet almost flew off!
after their march, we had this buffet session and photo sessions =)
it was jus like only ytd... =(

aft everything is done, we had our meal jus outside the camp.
baby and me reach home and get refresh before meeting trish n nick at playland. miss playing l4d wif him... his really gd at it.. my baby..

aft a 3hrs game, baby and me meet his clique for some pub session at whale. apparently, it was sharon and shirley last day. the place was full of smokes and i totally hate it! this baby don get the hint from me.. and i start to get really irritated. so i make myself a lil high by drinkin glass by glass of chivas. tar tar tar~ all the way. i was starting to enjoy myself.. sang and play wif kit. until baby get really pissed and bring me home. nxt day got to work!

13oct. tues.
after work, i was so happy! cos ive 2days straight off wif baby~
i stil rmb that i was sick and baby stayed up late.. i rmbed  sleeping on his cozy bed wif pillows surrounding me. hugging my lil elle, on and off he will kiss me den continue playin his game. i like the way he touch my head so gently.. kiss my forehead gdnite like im a lil girl.. =)
nxt day, we had prawning session!
sharon and me VS baby and shirley~
the winner is us! by jus one prawn.
ohh ya~ i hook up a giant king prawn! the funny part was that its not the king tat bite my bait. its his body kena trap onto my hook. how suay can that prawn be hurr?kekes
its fun and i wanna go again~
the feeling super gd wen u hook up a prawn!
=D

before prawning, baby was telling me he don peel prawn shell for ppl de and he rather don eat himself if he neds to peel it.. but in the end he still peel for me and even feed me. im like princess jus seat there waiting for food.. =)
missing you..

15 oct. thurs.
today is a shopping day wif sharon shirley and kit.
at first they were saying no guys are allow..
in the end sharon brought hers and call me to ask baby along. but baby was saying he wanna stay home play dota. so i prepare myself alone.
jus wen i step out of the lift, he was standing so charmingly giving me his smile in front of me.
such a wonderful surprise! ^^
i run over to him grabbing his hands so ever tightly.. =)

shopping at fareast, baby all the way help me take my baggie.. this is the first time a guy pei me shop wifout complaining sianz or tired or boring.. =)) the only thing he complain is hungry. kekez~
den at bugis we meet dan! so now there is 3 couples cept for shirley. cos jj go KL.. ><
den at bugis the 7 of us get 4 diff colours of emo couple T!
cant wait to wear it tgt!! hahhaaa bunch of emos walking ard~
aft shopshop, we cabbed down to arab street for sheeeshhaaaa..
this is the first time im trying and its like as if im really smoking.
den sharon so funny say she rather smoke real one de..
baby can really puff out alot of smoke lo!
as for me.. jus one breathe i cough le den like no smoke.. =[
cabb home aft tat..

18 oct . sun.
 the last day before going to australia le..
we meet sharon n shirley wif their bf to hav dinner at the rice table.
which is actually a indonesia buffet~
actually its not really tat bad as u can try alot of asian food as much as u can =))
but still i prefer sushies~
wanna bring baby to ichiban sushi  wen he comes bac. as promised.
icecream madness aft dinner. y madness?
cos the 4 of us sharing 3 scps of icecream =_=

19 oct. mon.
baby did not sleep well.. meet downstair whole fam hav breakfast. his dad driving us to the airport..
i really really trying very hard to control my tears..
i ask him to hug me real tight.. until i couldnt breathe....
finally the security outside is chasing us as we couldnt park at the place long..
a kiss gdbye.... is all i had..

reach home.. i was stunned.. so helpless..
i keep calling him... wanna listen to his voice..
keep calling him to sing for me..
=((((
i break down finally wen i listen to "fall for you by s.s" ..
i couldnt function the whole day..
baby.. baobei will be gd gurl de..
i knoe u worried that i go club. i promise i wont.. means i wont.
im so worried bout u now.. so missing u rite now..



in the past i don really loves mooncake.
cos thay don have that outstanding taste which will attract me.
but today i ate 2big mooncakes!!
the vegetarian almond is taste so uniquely sweet~


lemme share smth wif u guys~

i was chatting on fone wif baby while surfing the net.
AND I SAW THIS CUTE CUPCAKES!!!

ANDANDAND
CUTE STUFFED TOY which u can design ur own Ts for them!!! ^^

jus looking at all this cuties makes my day~
imagine if i were to have it, ill be very happy jumping with joy!

finish my last nite ler!!
last nite was TERRIBLE!
wen i reach the ward, i oredy heard the bad news.
one of them had a E-leave. =((
so we have to manage wif only 4 staffs wifout a 5th nurse.
therefore, ALL THE HIGH FALL RISK PATIENT, became my RED ALERT LIST.
first nite everyone was fst alseep.
but today is hell..










a nurse.. is worth more than wad u can ever imagine.
when she is in a boiling anger, she cant vent it on them, but to control and swallow it back.
she has to be VERY patience even wen she has a big load of other stuffs waiting for her.
mostly imptly, she has to love old ppl and have compassion and empathy.
i will not forget the reason y ive chosen to be in this profession.

wake me up when september ends~
ohwell, i and trish has a very strong telepathy.
and this really meant alot to me. i love you trish!

why the strong emotions? =P
cos last wk, at baby hse, out of nowhere no nothing,
i went in to youtube and listen to it..

nxt 2 days later, i was at home wif trish.
trish turn on this song.
same thing. out of nowhere no nothing.
S2

~"~"~"~"~"~"

trish tagged smth in facebook which i totally agree with it~
i would like to be a person to have as many hobbies as i like.
and im more in a jack of all trade. HAHA
my guitar skill is going down to the drain..
ohhhh wadeva~ my boyfy plays guitar! ^^

~"~"~"~"~"~"

*~last but not least i wanna dedicate this song to baby~*




i loves looking at the skies when im riding bicycle or wen in a car.
looking at the moving trees above.. just like the MV. =))))
best thing is with a prince charming on a horse riding you to the beautiful big grassland~!!!
my 100% happiness.

promise to myself that i wont want to give attitude unreasonable already.. will always try to control my temper! i miss baby very badly now.. always after a quarrel no matter wad, he will always be the one to give in.. why am i so effing stubborn!!!! =((
felt so guilty now..
he was already late for book in and he still send me to station.. i hugged him and really don feel like letting go.. aft we bid goodbye, i turn back and saw his backview.. felt like crying already..
i dunno y the sudden surge of sadness..
in the train, i finaly opened up to him about the issue we had ytd. i felt so super relief aft telling him. =)))
loves you baby~

its realy hard to find someone who can share the same interest,
who can share all ur joy and laughter..
hallelujah~