Friday, February 12, 2010 ♥
♥ 10:04 PM
Had a bad day
Hate my mood swing
Volunteer to help auntie to hang CNY deco, reach home, realise that i forgot to bring keys out.. kenna locked outside for 15 mins.. sat outside my hse floor.. feeling very angry and sad at the same time.. i wonder why i have such parents. i always look up to them. now it was them who take everything for granted. im am their daughter.. but i felt i am more like a stranger. when i was young my mum dont treat me like this.. now, everything has changed. no love from her anymore.. i wonder now, what am i to her.. i dont feel anything.. whatever i do she always comment alot. no encouragement. no efforts she put in to show that she care.
recently there is somethings that i realise and learnt from. i wont be like them. i will love and do anything for my children. even if i have no time no money. same goes to loves and friendship.
its not a good yr i know.
anyways, when i just about to call for the 6th times for someone inside to open the door, i felt someone or something is looking at me. the anger and saddest inside me immediately drop to zero. what and why is that??? yesss.. i smiled and quickly ran over and reached out for the cute lil dog~ it frightenly ran 2m away from me. i kneeled down patiently waiting for him to come to me.. true enough, he came forward to me very slowly. awwwwwwww.. i melted at once.. i stroke his fur, tickle his neck and it seems to love it very much. =)))))) he lie flat on the floor as a carpet. kekez~
i felt that he is lonely like me.. i continue to sat outside even thou my grandma opened the door for me.. i decide to get once i have my own hse! baby agree with the idea too~ =D
i think a pet dog is the best companion to be with.
a new must get it added to my list. S2